Haha well its the least i can do….you dont even know me but some how care.

and i know!!! i love this weather its driving me crazy! Im so happy to be breaking out the short shorts again!!! 

the sad part is i know its a tease and it will be getting cold again…cant wait till summer <3

HAHAHA no one even knows my fav anyways!!

I feel so relaxed. I wish the weather wanted to stay like this. Id really like to start waking up in the morning. 

January is almost over. Its almost my past. :)

Im excited for February. Not so much Valentines day. Ill just feel pressure to have a valentine when i dont get one. I want to do something in celebration tho…cus i love valentines day. Ill wear my red dress and Drink champagne. That sounds nice. But not so nice alone….Ill figure it out. 

I like to be carried….randomly like a bride. with out feeling heavy. so they gotta have some arm. It makes me feel so cute.

Me and Melody <3

SOOO SOOOOO BAD!!! :(

haha of course not! id be sad if he did! he needs people to have his back too! regardless of his mistake

many reasons actually.

The ones that are his fault: he was insecure, manipulated, she lied to him telling him i was cheating the whole time, she told him i didnt like him, when i made mistakes shed tell me not to tell him then go tell him herself so he put trust in her, he didnt communicate with me when there was a problem, he was constantly being told to leave me by her and his own friends because they didnt like who he became around the time we got together, and he wasnt honest about his own feelings…he wouldnt let how much he really liked me surface due to his insecurities. He wanted to keep his image of being a player too bad to let himself fall first. He wasnt willing to work with me through my depression stage he instead went behind my back and vented to her about how i was acting instead of helping me. But….mostly…i pushed away because out of nowhere he stopped making me feel special…and that scared me the most.

The ones that were my fault: I wasnt expressive enough…i had to high of a guard up. I was insecure…i was depressed and it rubbed off on him…i didnt show him affection enough because of the gut feeling i got about something…And i waited too long to let him know how much he meant to me. I gave him no self worth…i didnt show him i wanted to be there…when we first met i was happy and fun and completely honest with myself and him about how i felt…then when me and her started having my downfall and they started to get closer i started closing off…i started getting sadder and sadder that my best friend was treating me so wrong….so even if we had alone time…i was no fun…i was quite the downer actually.

so basically putting all that together makes your answer. I was never honest about how i felt to him because i was scared and it made him put his wall up as well….we pushed each other away because we wanted to be more in control which let her swoop right in and feed him every lie she told…him being insecure made him believe her and the more we pushed each other away…the more he believed it…and then shed get EVEN CLOSER.If me and him could have set our pride aside and just communicated with each other it wouldnt have happened. The only thing that kept us together even through all that was the rare moments we did have alone where we really clicked….that really just reminded us why we were together in the first place…in those moments nothing else mattered…our walls were down and all the rumors were out the window…those moments alone reset our feelings for each other and got all the bad ones out.

To sum it up: insecurities and lack of communication.

curious. I know im definitely attracted to girls. especially lately. I fantasize about my perfect girl and doing cute couple stuff with them. I just know i want that to come true haha…

Im not. i just feel bad that he was so manipulated.

It made him lose a lot.  She was bound to do it one day. and her plans just so happen to work on him.

Its not that im sticking up for him i just kinda see his side. Im understanding of it.

I respect that he had the guts to tell me it happened. he could have kept me happy and never told me. So i cant help but have at least some respect.

and he taught me what a downer she was, so im greatful. he was a pawn in her jealousy plans. it really didnt have to do with him. and for that…idk..all i can do is pitty him.

at least he learned from it. he took what he had coming to stop protecting her feelings. he fessed up to his mistake and chose to take all consequences. he didnt have to do that.

Unlike her…she was supposed to have my back 100x more. she was just going to keep it from me…and when it came out she ran. never even apologized. she didnt learn a thing…shes just a bad person.

He sucks for what he did…but i see how manipulated he was. and that sucks for him.

Just go away…your desperate attempts to make your self a victim are so sad. He didnt “rape” you. And quit trying to start rumors about me as if i were a bad gf. You knew nothing.