In the past couple days ive learned so much about myself and those around me. In a way…it was kind of a blessing. I didnt know how much better off i was with out her. How much she really dragged my life down and how much she used me.

In the past couple days ive learned so much who my real friends are…they refused to let me go through this all alone and told me everything i really needed to hear. They are the only reason i didnt snap (too bad) and the only reason i realized what a blessing in disguise it really was. How happy i am with out them both.

This morning i woke up and felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders…for the first time since i graduated i felt excited about the steps infront of me. 

Im officially going to the reserves. Im no longer torn between the decision of either going to the marines or school…The answer was so simple. haha

I dont need to worry. Im actually taking this a lot better then i thought. My life is still complete with out them. In fact its better…Im happy….

I only cried one night. the night i found out….i thought it was because maybe the shock hadnt hit me…but now i see because it was all for the best.

now only a few things to left i have to clear up. 

Yes im hurt still….and yes i sometimes still miss them. But im so happy i finally got to see her true colors and stopped being so confused.

And yeah i kinda get down by the things that remind me of them…and its still a break up so i have to watch chick flicks and change my hair. 

But i feel like a better me.